Many Moons

It was my fiftyth birthday, it was a great day this 3rd day of September, Labor Day.
No breakfast in bed, no birthday cake. Just one thing i missed about my ex, he always made it a big deal on my birthday, but I got beautiful flowers from my daughter +Veronica and some great birthday cards that made me laugh, we went out for dinner at @Joe's Crab Shack and i enjoyed it quite alot. My oldest granddaughter wished me a Happy Birthday on the phone as did my other granddaughter who sang Happy Birthday on the phone, and wished me a Happy Birthday, my brother +Jim called later and remembered my birthday, i am glad he is still in my life. My son +Alf and his family took me out for dinner @Five n Diner and gave me my first gun. I am so happy to finally have a gun, i hope to learn to use it very soon. In this stage of my life i have been able to reflect on my life and all that has occured. It has been a hard life, not because it had to be but because i made it that way by my own actions and decisions. Some things i regret but have forgiven myself as i know God has forgiven me, and some things that i don't regret but wish had had a different outcome, in any way this is my life, and i am enjoying what i have, who i'm with and where i am going. Who knows what will happen next.

it all adds up

last night i had a dream, my sisiter and i with my youngest daughter, when she was a toddler, were on a bus getting off on Broadway road and connecting to another bus, later we are at a laundry mat but i left the baby with my sister and went to a candy store, i asked the guy about the candy i was looking for but he said they don't carry that candy anymore, so by the time i got back to the laundry mat my sister was talking to a lady and holding my baby upside down by one leg, she said it's all in the dryer now. I wondered why i would be dreaming about such things, but then i remembered that the night before i had thought about the nursing home where i used to work, it was located on Broadway road, i also thought about my brother coming over this weekend to fix my daughters bike flat tire, he usually does his laundry when he comes over, and the last thing i remember seeing before i went to bed was a left over package of my favorite chocolate bar on my bedside table. It is funny how my mind put these three random thoughts into a dream. It seems odd that my sister would be holding my daughter upside down but that's the way she was with the kids, she thought it was fun for them, she was a child at heart, now i understant that she was not the best babysitter for the kids but she was all i could afford, less than day care, on a single parents income. I really enjoy my dreams with my sisiter, she always prayed for us to be closer, God knows what he does and when to do it.

Allen

He watched our backs, he believed in our work, He walked into a room and had a smile for everybody,  He created a very friendly environment for us to work in, when he made changes to policies he always made sure that everyone understood the expectations, He carried a basket of candy, like the easter bunny, sharing with us as he made his rounds, He was a good boss, now he is gone, How sad for his sons, He was an active part of their lives, He was so proud of them, I will miss Him

My Mother's Birthday

We went to visit my mother's grave site today, four siblings, and my youngest daughter, my sister is also at the same location next to my mom, it seems odd to actually talk to someone that is buried and gone, but i guess it helps my brothers to cope with the loss, it is nice to laugh together and catch up with the things of life, i know that God allows the dead to see the living and i hope that my mom can see that we are all alright.

The work of God

It was three days ago when i could hear a noise in my van when i drove, i knew that i had to get it checked but i am flat broke, when my brother came over and needed me to take him on an errand i told him to keep an ear out for the noise, it didn't take long for him to hear the noise and for me to feel a problem when i turned, it seemed that the van was letting us know that there was a big problem, i felt we were going to get stranded but we made it home and he got to work on it right away, i called my son to check his availablity in case we needed him to run my brother around for parts if necessary, when they took the right front tire off, the site was horrific, the CV axle was falling apart, it all worked out in the end, my brother came over and began the process of working on the van, my son was off work and could come help, the auto parts store had the part in stock, and the part was replaced without further damage, this was the work of God